Right now I am having kind of an internal conflict with myself about whether I am going to be a social optimist, or if I am going to be a realist about my time kicking it. Oh on so many nights I have been in the position where we set up a chance to kick it with some girls, we have the numbers, the time the place, I mean things can really work out. Everyone is talking right, you have a good buzz all you have to do is meet at the spot. This could really be a classic night, and that is the excitement that drives you. You are charged because you begin to picture a perfect night where everything goes well and it becomes one of those great stories that you will be telling (at least in certain company) for years. But the reality is that classic nights don't happen that often. Instead, the night falls apart because one of her friends sucks and is just in an evil mood, or one of the guys you called is just coming on too strong or can't hold his liquor, or there is a fight at the club, or the car gets towed, or something that just completely destroys all of the potential for the night. Unfortunately, the issue is that I know that the night is more than likely to fall apart, but if I allow myself to accept this reality, I don't think I would still put myself out there to kick it, because after all, what is the point of putting plans together if you know it will never work out right?
So basically that is my conundrum, do I continue to be a social optimism and be killed slowly each time the inevitable happens or do I accept the reality that most people really just aren't that fun? Decisions, Decisions.
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